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[Aug. 23rd, 2009|10:24 pm] |
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yknw god, i surrender, i really do. I'm tired of running away, and lying to myself and telling myself that your gonna make things work. Each time i ask for something, you just make something go wrong more. & When i pray for something to go on well, you just make things worse. What is it that you want for me? Are you happy that i'm finally giving up after being strong for so long. I've decided to let everything go lord. Are you smiling away now? Are you satisfied with my performance? did i show you how strong am i? Yeah, i've got lots to thank you for, firstly splitting my family, secondly,This problem. Yknw everything, yes you do. You can't say you don't because i know i cried alot yesterday during the rally.Why did everything go so well, till now? Why am i looking for love outside? can't you give me what i need? why is see-ing only believe-ing? Why are there problems over problems? Why can't you just give me a clue on what im missing out from? Why do you have to put me through so many stages in life god, why?yknw i'm just so sick and tired. Call me back lord. I wanna go. If your not gonna call, i'm gonna call.
Baby, i deserve more than empty words and promises, I believed everything you said & i gave you the best i had.
I gave you love, yet all you gave me was pretence.
&i fucking hate you, because you made me fall, fall so hard i don't know how to get up anymore.
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[Aug. 23rd, 2009|03:34 pm] |
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With your name engraved on my heart, how can i stop thinking of you?
DYD last night was simply the bomb okayy[: A day filled with laughter, and tears. & now finally i can breath and say it's over. Yes, thank god it is. Another problem gone [: yeahuh, reached home, and knocked out, yes w/o bathing, str8 to the bed! woke up and went to shower around 3am, then went back to bed. I'm currently bumming at home. i know this is bad, but im lazy to go for mass ]]:
Suppose to accompany syng to buka, but i'm lazy to travel to bedok. hurrr. I'll accompany him soon.
Mommy & Step-daddy's home with me, michie just returned. Brought cheesecake home. yiippie. Gonna makan then sleep.
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[Aug. 19th, 2009|09:36 pm] |
HEEHAW SEESAW
Horla, went school late today, OVERSLEPT ): woke up by botak boy's call! hehe, so yes hurry rushed, and left home for school.
Reached school and went fer lessons,lessons today was quite good(: bohring, but made better thanks to the gereks! hmm, SBM was the bomb, eva laughed till her face went red, first time sial! hahaha.hmm yeah, went to meet botak boy after school, was supposed to go home with himm, butt! haha, yeah went home w my bbygerls instead! (: Reached home, and mummy was home! so yes, lepaked around, and then botak boy called, talked to that boy till like 8 plus, then ahyeen called, talked to her awhile then cleaned my wholeee room w mummy, and watching singapore idol. Hmm, then went to shop with mama, then came home, and on the phone with that boy again! nonsence lar he. Graduation photo tomorrow! Hmmm, the terms coming to an end! so fasttt. I should start paying attention in class(:
Alright, i'm gonna talk to boy, and fall asleep! see you when i see you machas! (:
lastly,
HAPPY 48TH BIRTHDAY MOMMY,I LOVE YOU.
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[Aug. 17th, 2009|09:33 pm] |
 
With friends like this, how can you bear to shed a tear?
MONDAY
OMG this is plain weird, my lappie's been hanging/lagging for like the first time? lol. Lappies these days! haiiyoo.I can only say that much.School was alright today, bby eva came back from her week's MC:D Missed her crehzey, had to listen to the boring lecturer's voice fer like hours!i was like dam nantok! lucky had sweets, i suppose that kept everyone awaka CA decided to let us off early, so ended half an hour early. Hmmm, not bad! the bad thing is there's PE tomorrow, fer like the first two hours somemore. Crazyy, Graduation photo this thursday.hmm. Well, i enjoy school and i wish it wont have to end, but sometimes i just hate school so much. Hmm. it's been 16 years of my life, thank-you God for giving me this long. & yes, the night is boring but i've got entertainment thanks to my Number 09 boy!
Alrighttt, time to go pack bag, wash-up & lie on the bed, cus botak boy's gonna be calling at 10.00PM sharppp.
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[Aug. 17th, 2009|12:11 am] |
I'm holding on to what i have left.
SUNDAY(:
My day was awesome, went out fer mass in the morning, Then headed fer SALT, new faces and old ones! (: went fer lunch after that! BKBKBKBK(: went out with my babies hurrr. yknw i dun feel like journalling.
FAMILY CRISIS ): I DOWAN! |
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[Aug. 15th, 2009|10:33 pm] |
HOLA MACHAS!
Saturday! headed out to church fer meeting, then went to service my phone, it finally decided to bid me goodbye. After holding on fer so long, Nokia jjust couldn't take it, Well baby, i understand the pain i've put you through, We'll rest well till tuesday atleast(: HEHE! nonsence sia i. Hmm, heading down to SFX tomorrow, collect DYD shirts, then back to saint anne's fer mass and SALT!(:So much fer catching up on my sleep, Anna came over, and woke me XD ughh! well!
Yes, so watched Liar Liar, and some stupid Vasantham star 09 shitzxz,, fucking funny luyhh. All wanna step Singers TAK JADI BODOH!
Mummy's home! OMG MY FAV SONG PLAYING ON RADIO (: I liokeee (!!)
K lor, i nk gi buat keje aku, nk gi iron baju untuk bsok, pagi2 mesti agun, malas oiii!
kk,lastly i haven't been able to get over this line
"GUA LOVE MATREP OIII"
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[Aug. 15th, 2009|02:37 am] |
I hate you so much,why do you have to ruin everything for me. I wish i never had you in my life! i wish i never knew you! you want me to chnage right! Fine, imma change. your gonna regret it. I'll make sure you wish you never spoke to me! I HATE YOU. |
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[Aug. 14th, 2009|04:50 pm] |
WAKAWWWW
sadly the week has to end): well! Gerek's would know whyy.So yes yes, school was pure AWESOMEE fer the week, looking back it has been a week of fun despite the tiredness and the boring teachers voice! Looking on the bright side, the breaks, & Toilet breaks were fun.Would have been more fun if bby eva was in school, missed that little devils voice. Well, i cannot wait for school on monday! I mean the going back to meet my friends, Weekends are always packed w stuffs, gahh i just hate it! I'd rather be in school. So yes, i havent had any plans, i doubt i wanna have any, i wanna stay home and catch up on my sleep. weeii staying home is fun okayy (:
Mommy's birthday is coming, like very very soon (: must go shopping for her gifttt. hmmm. PENAT OIII.
K lahh, skrng aku banyakk lapa, i nk gi masak2, abeh i nk tunggu botak boy msg, abeh i nk call dier. AKU SUKEEE!(:
I'm talking cock, i'm just tired, and bored so tired+Bored= TALK COCK! (:
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[Aug. 11th, 2009|11:09 pm] |
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Hola Machas!
School was pure bohh-ring.Most of the Gerek's didn't come, and PE was just plain... Yknw what i mean. So yes, POA was alright Sheila came, walked around most of the time, & BEO was like -.-" just save it man!
Yes, only 4 hours of school,The only thing that made my day was the fact that i got to see my BOTAK BOY!<33
So yes, Hopefully full strength fer the gerek's cus lesson's are freaking longg tomorrow!
Oh yes, Something dam dam scary happened when i was alone at home, Thank god baby smurf was there to company me! So yes, fell asleep on him ): haaa. Well! Woke up & Webcammed with that, ordered macs fer both me and michie.Jie jie came home, and bother hooked the lappie and i was alone, so i decided to cam-whore with bobbby(:
Mummy came home with Step-daddy, and i brought bobbie down with him.. Heee! (: Talked bike with him, andd andd it seems like if i pass my licences, he's gonna pay fer half of my bike! haaa! i wanna get sports bike! Abit too early to say uh. So yes, talked with him about this guy,seems like its best to forget, move on. Well, i mean who knows better right. Whatever! It's just a guy.. well, not excatly.
Gahhhhhh!
[So yes, i never intended to leave a part fer you, well guess i'm doing it now, i didn't know how to start a convo with you on this topic so figured this would be better, hmmm, yes2, I got to know not long ago, chatted, texted & voomp, you made me smile even when my fever made me frown.Enjoyed your company, infact i looked forward to it, well! what can i say, you were too good to be true? I knew that you wouldn't stay fer long. Told myself that you can't be the one,guess my hearts too stubborn. Ha! you were good, I don't even know if i loved you? maybe i did, wait i think i did, but not to the extend.Well, it doesn't matter. I just find it so hard to speak to you now. Good day love.]
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[Aug. 10th, 2009|10:47 am] |
Now your gone, i caused this upon myself, now all i can do is to sit and stare at the stupid call that i made to you.
National day was alright, went for mass then went to compass for lunch with Audrey & guys, then met up with Deidre and Maria. Left fer Aaron's place, reached there and slacked, played wii, then left fer gilly's place, met her and the guys and then headed back to my place, went to get food and all, then watched the parade at my place followed by Singapore Idol, well, the after part was jusy ----ed up.
sorry gillian, yknw what i mean, but thank you for being there for me.
XOXO! i love you baby,
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